Brooke Shields says she beat herself up “for a long time” over her husband’s bond with their newborn while suffering from postpartum depression.

Brooke Shields has spoken candidly about her experience with postpartum depression.

Brooke, now 57, is the mother of 19-year-old Rowan Francis and 16-year-old Grier Hammond. In the year After giving birth to Rowan in 2003, the actress suffered severe postpartum depression – something she detailed in her 2005 book, The rain fellAnd during the popular appearance The Oprah Winfrey Show In the same year.

And now that she’s opening up more about her experience, Brooke sat down for one. Appearance on the WTF with Marc Maron Podcast To discuss a sensitive subject this Monday.

Noting that she was “completely out of biochemical balance” after giving birth, Brooke initially believed she could “fix” herself without outside help. In fact, she said she was able to take medication until family and friends intervened.

“It was very dark,” she said. “My mother-in-law called me and told me that I had dead eyes. I finally said yes to get everyone off my back.

But when Brooke started to improve, she said, she stopped taking the prescribed medication — without consulting her doctor.

“I left because I felt better [the medication] … because obviously I was a doctor at that point,” she said with a laugh.

As a result, Brooke experienced an episode she described as “terrifying.” She said: “I thought I was going to drive my car into the wall on the 405…you’ll see. It has pictures. If you close your eyes, they run into your mind.”

While Brooke was in this condition, she explained that her doctor stayed on the phone until she got home safely. “You’ll be back on the meds soon,” they told her.

Moreover, Brooke touched on the guilt she felt when her postpartum depression made it difficult to bond with her newborn right away.

Brooke says she beat herself up “for a long time” and said it was hard to see her husband Chris Henchy have such a strong bond with baby Rowan when she was dealing with PPD.

Brooke discusses her experience with postnatal depression further in the new Hulu documentary. Beautiful baby. And in particular, when she decided to speak out for the first time in the early 2000s, she touched on the extreme way she gave comments to her friend, actor Tom Cruise.

Tom is a celebrity member. Church of Scientology, which condemns the use of medicine and treatment. appeared on of Today show Shortly after Brooke’s book was published, he called her “dangerous” for sharing “irresponsible misinformation.”

“There is no such thing as a chemical imbalance,” he said. “I was misinformed about Brock. I don’t understand psychiatric history.

“She doesn’t know what these drugs are, and it’s irresponsible to introduce them to her,” he added.

Brock responded by writing an op-ed piece New York Times“Tom must stick to saving the world from aliens and decide what treatment options are available to women with postpartum depression,” she wrote.

“I would take a wild guess that Mr. Cruz has never suffered from postpartum depression,” she wrote.

Now Brooke has described the whole thing as “ridiculous” as she reflects on Tom’s comments in the new Hulu documentary.

“It was so funny to me,” she said. “It’s not about what’s moral, or what’s right, or what’s good. It’s about who has more power.

Tom finally He apologized Brooke publicly accepted the apology after being told by various doctors that she had been misinformed about her comments.

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